MKULTRA Mind Control Programming and DID
Insidious Flashbacks - Spin and Suicide Programming
“T” continues to help me with daily communication, connection, and exhausting work of eradicating trauma and the scars it leaves. The problem with healing is the nose dive that occurs before leveling off. We have gone through three very intensive crashes in the last two weeks, the last one was the worst. Dissociation is chronic from years of neglect, abuse, and insidious bullying followed by isolation.
There are times that are quite trying for healers. Yesterday was not a good day, in fact, it was downright scary for “T” and me. The desire to help, and realize there is a far better method to actually cure DID and break programming is a string of trial and error and yesterday “T”’s best efforts failed, not for a Goliath effort of trying help. “T” struggled as much as me. I am so, so sorry. I don’t want to be this way. “T” is aware of my lack of resources, money and connection to society for what the world calls professional help, people I will never trust again.
There are huge strides of success already occurring. I don’t want to name alters on social media because it makes our system more vulnerable for predators - more than we already are.
Successes are two opposing alters are integrating and using their best qualities to balance and empower our system. A child alter under the protection of one of them has moved into that circle. It was needed. She sends our entire system into a spiral from lack of safety and fear. There are other child alters who are revealing themselves and their extraordinary fear. Another teen alter has transitioned in with the other two adult alters, technically, two teens, an adult and child alter are in the same communication circle. We have never had this much integration, let alone within two weeks time.
Healing DID is not for the faint of heart. Unbelievable, repeated trauma occurred to cause dissociative identity disorder. I am poly fragmented, but likely there are untold numbers of alters.
Suicide Risk in Dissociative Identity Disorder: DID systems have one of the highest rates for suicide, statistically 70% or greater. It is possible for one alter to be suicidal yet the rest of the system is stable. Fragmentation allows one alter to believe they can eliminate themselves from the system without hurting the rest. When I committed suicide in 2019, it was one alter punishing another alter for the abuse they were all enduring by Karl (ex husband). Blame was put on her since he targeted one of the most vulnerable, while manipulating child alters. There is one particular child alter that struggles immensely yet the rest of our system is unaware why. Without safety, she keeps our system in flux, ebbing and flowing between despair, anxiety, and fear.
Chapter Eleven: Suicidal Programming
by: Svali
I have decided to write an entire chapter about suicidal programming, since it is often the most dangerous programming that the survivor will face during their healing process. ALL ILLUMINATI SURVIVORS WILL HAVE SUICIDAL PROGRAMMING PROTECTING THEIR SYSTEMS. I emphasized this to also reiterate the need for good therapy and a strong support system for the survivor.
Chronometric suicidal programming is another type placed within. This does not need contact with family members to activate. In fact, it is activated automatically after a certain amount of time WITHOUT cult contact.
Systems layered programming is a particularly complex form of suicide programming where several systems (up to six at a time), are programmed to fire off suicide programming simultaneously.
The survivor may also find that they encounter core despair. This despair may have been used by the cult to run suicidal programming, but it is not programming itself. If core despair comes up, the alter containing this may also report having been trained to NOT SUICIDE, or give up. The trainers will do this, if despair begins overwhelming the subject at an early age, to prevent the child's suicide.
Time, patience, support, the ability to vent feelings in a safe manner and physical safety when needed, will all help immensely as the survivor works through these issues.
Judith Herman’s Three Stages of Recovery from Severe Trauma should be foundational knowledge in the mental health world but they are more about re-victimization, institutional betrayal, and life long traumatized customers. It is possible that memory work may not be necessary in the future although healing methods are inadvertently triggering memories as we discover what works and what does not.
SAFETY - STABILITY - MEMORY WORK - RECOVERY - RECONNECTION
I was failed life long by the mental health and medical field who are nothing more than shill government agencies and secret societies who abuse, leave their mark, blame the victim, then game the system against survivors seeking solace and help.
At some point, I was in touch with all of these organizations. Psychiatry and trauma as a whole is grossly failing victims of horrendous abuse.
International Society for the Study of Trauma and Dissociation (ISSTD)
International Society for Traumatic Stress Studies (ISTSS)
Life With Trauma and Dissociative Disorders
Stop Mind Control and Ritual Abuse Today
Dissociative Identity Disorder Research
At the end of the day yesterday, after closing down social media and writing and crying to exhaustion, I posted this to Twitter. I am looking forward to insight and ideas from those in the trenches.
#MKULTRAMindControl survivors, help me fill in some blanks. The chess board. Programming language, "do you want to play a game?" How is this "game" played? Where is it played? Aren't there children all over this board? Is it real or in our minds? It is terrifying.
Your "piece" lands on a black square and you fall down thru the black square into Alice and Wonderland in the upside down. There is the sound of a bell and then what?
What is the place with light green tiled walls? Where is it? Who are they? It is so drugged out and blurry but #flashbacks are intense. #Targeting is sending me trigger words to my mind that induce Suicide Programming and/or Spin programming. I am discovering trip wires with word and number codes I send my #DID system to activate myself! This has not happened before. October thru December suck. HELP!
I have been afraid to sleep all night - complete, sheer, terror. It nears 5:00 AM and exhaustion is setting in, but it is still dark. This is what the demonic Christians and their Christian Nationalist cohorts wanted. Better to isolate and destroy than to admit the sinister dealings of soul and asset accumulation, using sheep for rituals they believe will save them from hell. It is amazing tens of millions of dollars, if not more is being utilized from tax payers to silence one black sheep, the one with integrity who not only calls out the emperor wears no clothes, but neither does the child next to him. The monsters protect one another because that is what Shapeshifters do. They appear innocent as doves but vultures is their real identity.