The Other Woman

Final Destruction

Please do not think I am asking for money. My GoFundMe is still up but I cut off the ability to donate money. I also turned off payment on my Substack because my bank account is frozen with $441.82, that I cannot access. All my bills stopped auto-paying. I do not have a vehicle and thus no way to get to my bank or to communicate with them without a phone. They will not talk to me through email.

I have no access to Facebook without a phone or to the few people far away that help me hold it together for ongoing support.

My phone was cut off last week for nonpayment and I could not turn it back on without making a payment first, but my login credentials did not work. Cricket used to be the most helpful for someone with DID. I could get to a human being easily previously and there was a note on file to help me with login and password issues. AI does not understand or assist imperfect human beings. Thus, we are entering the age of Data Centers or SMART Cities that will be run by robots, not people. This is why RFK is running a Nazi Eugenics program.

A couple of days ago my Walmart payment system failed and so I cannot even order groceries. There is not a store close enough to get food. No, there are no food banks within walking distance. This area is already in high demand for resources since Christians cut off help while cheering for the Orange Israel loving pedophile and womanizer to the less thans of society, you know, mothers with children, disabled, sick, elderly, the people Jesus would have embraced. It is impossible in my very rural area to get anywhere without transportation.

I am about to be cut off from the world and there is nothing I can do to stop it this time. My internet will shut off tomorrow (Friday). My “friend” Linda Pietrzak Ross was here in April after I went no contact in July of 2022. I thought I would be able to pull together a way to make money through writing and research, I just needed some help setting up the website and learning about creating videos, SEO, marketing, and such. The help never came. It turns out if you are a raging, abusive asshole, an entire fleet of Christians will guarantee your success while victims are depleted of resources and life.

The last things Linda needed to finish me off were my phone number, phone provider, and my bank information. Within two weeks of her leaving my phone was shut off and my bank account frozen. She fed me breadcrumbs knowing she was pulling my life out from under me.

It is because of Linda’s help that I was left with absolutely nothing in divorce. I mean zero. When Linda was here in April, she blamed me! She said that I did not show up for court and that is how Karl won. I will tell the court/lawyer story in another post.

A woman, following my April nightmare visit with Linda asked me if I was aware of Dr. Hare, and I told her I was. She implied Linda is likely a psychopath. Linda has been feeding me breadcrumbs for 25 years while distracting me from the utter destruction she caused in my life while Karl was lying, cheating, controlling, and abusing me that kept me in confusion. Psychopaths are attracted to psychopaths, particularly when they find easy prey to feast upon.

Linda, you are NOT Jen Hamilton, and you know it.

If you don’t know, twice I was close to finishing my college degree in psychology and both times with a nearly perfect GPA achieved while going to school full time, working full time and raising two children and grandchildren.

I was also writing books, one intended to be my thesis that was 200+ pages and 100+ references that following failed suicide, I discovered the infant that I was married to deleted with the backup.

At Liberty University in 2013 I was 7 classes from my bachelor’s degree when they froze my account. I want to thank Harvest Bible Chapel and the MacDonald Mafia thugs for kicking me out and cutting me off from finishing school, losing my job at Moody Bible Institute, and cutting me off from the cult, I mean church. They made me extremely dependent upon my abuser.

The second time I was attending a fast-track bachelor/master’s program with 18 classes remaining at Crown College and would have graduated in May of 2021 allowing financial independence. I was dealing with non-stop abuse that stepped up to crazy level around 2016 being screamed at and held down while Karl did it. I was having memory issues with no idea it is a direct symptom of narcissistic abuse and a symptom of C-PTSD.

The Brutal Truth No One Says About Surviving Narcissistic Abuse

Brain Damage from Narcissistic Abuse – Empowered Healing

The therapist I was seeing, Deborah Metroka in Algonquin, IL enabled Karl Ulrich’s abuse despite documenting it. Had I had the above 59 second video in 2020, I would have been able to help myself and tell Metroka to #GFC.

Though Monique in Australia was able to show me the real Linda in 2021, I was really trauma bonded to the illusion of Linda’s “goodness.” In 2023, a guy made a comment to “get over Karl already, he never loved you.” Without missing a beat, I said I was over Karl the day I locked him out of our house on November 6, 2020. Right after, I said it is Linda that I am having trouble getting over and I shocked myself by those words. It is then I began digging hard to figure out Linda.

What a friend. I hold her personally responsible for enabling abuse of my daughters and making escape impossible. What makes sense now is a cryptic message from Karl about Linda in 2017 or 2018. He told me not to trust Linda. I reported that to her and now think back to her shocked reaction and, “that’s weird” response. They have to tell us to alleviate karma.

While I dug through hundreds of files and thousands of papers Karl left behind, my area was hit nonstop with severe weather and tornadoes that elevated C-PTSD to such high levels I began dissociating 100% of the time again and never recovered. It is also when a Facebook friend told me that I am autistic and sent me the tests that confirmed I am.

I found Kathleen Duncan, MFT (An Autistic Guide) and learned of autistic burnout that can be so severe it causes permanent disability. Now I have answers to why I struggle.

I became disillusioned by humanity, asking for help that never came. I have no idea if I ever felt human, loved, wanted, or needed by anyone. In 2021 an author shared the term soul murder with me and everything made sense. She warned me to get out of America and try to make a fresh start because she was certain I would be murdered.

I tried to get out. Author is right, it is four years later, as she predicted and there is not a shred of my life left. I am most surprised by my daughters, but I am relatively sure there are financial incentives to go no contact. Rh Negative blood runs in my lineage and their turn are coming to be targeted, so will be grandchildren. I tried to protect my daughters and their children, and they defended their abusers and controllers.

Autistic Burnout is caused by

1) Chronic Life Stress (domestic violence, gang members, pregnant belligerent teens, lack of help or support for mental load and household tasks)

2) Mismatch of expectations and abilities (Deborah Metroka and Linda kept telling me to get a job – both of them are functioning imbeciles).

3) A lack of adequate supports (My daughters were equally unhelpful. Their Latin King friends could have stopped Karl’s abuse. Their response was to tell me to figure it out myself, we have done enough for you. Christine told me she could care less if I became homeless and should be locked up for life. Jackie, after a year of documented abuse, tried to get me committed by having police break down my door while I was almost asleep watching a Hallmark movie.

Jackie made a false call that I was suicidal. Jackie was a CNA then and a nurse now and should never have passed a psych evaluation. I have the report from that call and am disgusted. Like Linda, Jackie is delulu that I was the problem and need to be locked up, not Karl knocked to the next century to stop the abuse.

Let me slightly back that up. Karl changed the day we married from love bombing my children to raging asshole and he started on Jackie first. I was under Jesus spell programming so I went to Christians for help, not realizing they were the problem. The marriage was intentional to get the equity from my home, and destroy my relationship with my children. Linda was Karl’s most loyal help mate.

When I look back at living in Newport Village in Carol Stream, I don’t know why my daughters gang member friends did not cause Karl to accidentally slip and fall, especially after he attacked Milo. I certainly could not make any of us safe or improve our situation, no matter who I contacted for help. Karl’s claim to fame was to tear up every room in the house, trapping me from escaping from a construction zone while he built a contractor business I was unaware of.

I am sorry for these bunny trails. When Black Magician was in my life and remotely playing around in my brain using energy manipulation at the end of 2024, to integrate parts of my DID system, he noticed vast areas of black, nothing, no memory. Occasionally, he would “step on” something and open a lock. What we realized is I am missing almost 100% of all memories between 2003 and 2010.

I worked for Steve Edlin, MA, LCPC, MFT at The Evangelical Alliance Mission during that time. I only remember work, almost nothing at home. This is how Karl built his Freemason empire of acquiring and accumulating wealth and women without me having a clue. How Steve Edlin missed Dissociative Identity Disorder and Autism as a psychologist is baffling…or I was intentionally hired because of both. He used me.

According to Stuart McIntosh, some Freemasons become adept at hypnotism, and you don’t even know it is happening. Just a touch, word, or a look can bring a person under their control. No one is aware, other than the perpetrator.

Stuart also told me that Freemasons have access to drugs and by the time they are a 3^rd degree, they have knowledge of how to use them.

It is sickening how permeated and controlled our world is by legions of Luciferians. Stuart was very helpful in my beginning journey in 2021 of understanding and deprogramming Freemasonic damage and abuse. I eventually burned out from research. You don’t need stupid passwords and hand signs. You just need to know you sell your soul in the Chamber of Reflection and continue giving it away until nothing is off limits.

Black Magician was able to see that I was horrendously abused during the time that my memory is blacked out. We never talked about it, just acknowledged it was there. Steve and Miriam Edlin run Still Water Missionary Retreat Center in Buchanan, MI are demonic.

What Black Magician did for me that not a single “expert” in the psychology world could or would do is integrate. He connected three oppositional alters who remain separate but cooperative and my system calmed considerably from suicidal ideation. This may seem insignificant, just three alters out of hundreds integrated but it was huge to calm my system of unadulterated fear. Dissociative fugues and amnesia became dangerous, ending up in the State of Washington, North Carolina, and in Texas under seriously scary circumstances, all to avoid Linda and Karl’s compulsivity to commit me to a psych prison for money.

I want to end with a final thought. A couple of months ago I got stuck on the movie The Other Woman. Kate makes it through divorce and heartbreak after her husband is discovered to be a serial cheater, only because Carly and Amber stand by her side and fight WITH AND FOR HER. Every woman of influence that is invested in the patriarchy system, why?

Finally, Adam and Rebecca James. He escaped a Christian cult and is neurotypical and Rebecca is neurodivergent. Adam wrote this song for Rebecca. Why are these former Christians more moral, honoring, and supportive than any of hundreds of Christians I was surrounded by for 20 years at church, bible study, work, or friends who burned my life to the ground. I cannot think of a single person with the fruits of the spirit. Why was I not deserving of the same love, respect, and honor?