You Don't Just Walk Away from Religion
Deprogramming from Religion is Like Open Heart Surgery without Anesthesia
You don't just walk away from religion. It is a very painful band aid ripping off process. There is something about the insidiousness of brainwashing, gaslighting, manipulation, and truth mixed with lies that does real damage. Religion is a form of narcissistic abuse.
For those who were engrossed in religion especially for a long time, were a pastor, church leader, or like me lived, breathed, and worked in religion for 20 years, you don't just leave and move on. If you were able to do this, that is remarkable.
I have hated myself with a suicidal rage for being so foolishly stupid to be duped by the "safest" community oozing Jesus love, and for my own part in perpetuating it. I think I finally forgive myself today and release all that emotion from betrayal - self and others.
I studied the bible more after leaving the church. I saw through double speak. For every bible verse there is usually a verse that says just the opposite. The brain cannot handle two opposite truths simultaneously. This is well known by the CIA and company.
I moved on to the Torah and Talmud and realized that Christians who believe as gentiles they are accepted into the fold by The Chosen, will be un-alived in the end because they are nothing but animals. I read Egyptian, Rosicrucian, and Kabbalah. I delved into Black Magick, Satanism, and New Age Starseedism. I needed to know it all to never, ever be fooled again.
Torah Texts
https://www.sefaria.org/texts
Talmud
https://ia600609.us.archive.org/17/items/CompleteBabylonianTalmudEnglish/Complete%20Babylonian%20Talmud%20%28English%29.pdf
I run the gamut of rage to sorrow, back and forth, up and down and mostly angry with myself for not seeing it, for having no clue and for allowing myself to be duped by the people who spoke Jesus talk. They preached Jesus love and salvation while allowing and enabling domestic violence and crushing me to nothing, isolating and diminishing me until I committed suicide, failed and they went after me even harder.
https://alltruth.home.blog/2019/09/28/warning-the-tragic-consequences-of-religious-cult-fair-game-tactics-and-covert-methods-of-secret-societies/
“The reality is, what we shall term as pernicious abuse by cults and secret societies is something that can and does have a devastating and often deadly effect, not just on a victim, but also within society as a whole depending on how widespread it is. Some suggest that the use by Freemasons is so excessive and widespread that it shapes everything from countries to politics to social attitudes. Pernicious abuse often leads to covert psychological murder, something which is quite real, highly insidious, documented in prisoner of war camps but tragically goes unrecognized and unquestioned until it’s too late.”
The last strings of Freemasongelicalism (Christian) ties are finally broken. The chains of demons manipulating minds. No more strongholds.
I get what the church is doing. They manipulate weak minds to do their bidding through their poison twisted SCRIPTure. I began to understand the code written within the text that has far more sinister meaning. I think it was yesterday, I saw directly from Freemasons they use the King James Version of the bible for rituals and I lost it, completely lost it because I was invalidated, called crazy, demon possessed, delusional and a host of derogatory names while I was trying to figure it all out. It is what I remember from indescribable abuse. THEY ALWAYS USE THE BIBLE!
https://themasons.org.nz/div/johnbg/FF_King_James.html....
I was abused inside Church of Christ in Blue Island, IL for 5 to 6 years as a child by the pastor and elders with my mother's knowledge and permission because of my "defiance." (I was being abused at home because I was not an agreeable subject). They also spoke bible at me. I already had Dissociative Identity Disorder, surely they knew they broke a little girl, yet they continued. When the church found out decades later, specifically a former Christian friend, she exploited me - actually called me demon possessed in writing, among other derogatory things all the while knowing my Christian husband was screaming and raging at me at home.
NO ONE STOPPED HIM!
They opened the bible, read it, spoke sermons, showed me in the bible where God said it was permissible to do what they did and then they did it. They followed that with baptism (drowning) to cleanse me of MY sin! I think it has been about 2-3 weeks since I found out that is a Freemason ritual - baptism by drowning. It is much worse than it sounds. Think waterboarding and up that visual by 1000 percent.
Everything that should be good and wholesome and should work in balance, they made taboo and made Christians fear balance.
Complementarianism, not headship. Overlords are for the insecure. Suppression is for those who don't want truth to be found so they intentionally integrate fear. Women and children are destroyed by religion worldwide. These crazy men are fixated by their all knowing tyranny. The words, stories in these books are permissive to abuse in every possible way. There is nothing that holds abusers accountable. If you say judgement is coming. You are still in it. The reason they do what they do because there is no judgement, not in the way holy books describe anyway. That is subject for another day.
Insecure create division and chaos or their narcissistic plans dissolve and they are exposed for the worms they are, rotting healthy fruit and turning it into genetically modified minds. Fear is profitable.
If family values, conservativism, and righteous living is so important to the church, why is there SO MUCH ABUSE, DIVORCE, DISSENSION? Why do pastors preach one thing and live completely opposite? Why are they killing each other in the name of god and every religion forcing themselves on one another....or else. THEY ARE DEMONS. Why do Christians need so many denominations? Confusion, that is why. Money is another.
Today I feel better because behind the scenes someone graciously walked with me for the last 5 days or so through incredible darkness, and I think I finally released myself. I told that person that the world should operate on KINDNESS CURRENCY because that kind of hoarding can not be corrupted.
