Society, Church, and Institutions Normalized Abuse
How was I supposed to see the red flags and danger?
Audio Recording of Karl Ulrich trapping me from escaping the house February 2, 2020
This text message on December 2, 2019, 18 days following failed suicide, and married 17 years, shows the level of brainwashing and inability to see red flags. It also shows how people with DID, CPTSD, and Autism are extremely vulnerable to predators.
I had to ask my husband permission to buy mascara! This is how controlled I was and I still worshipped him, an extraordinary trauma bond. I was enslaved to him and had no idea.
I was not aware of any of these diagnosis at this point though I had been in the mental health system for decades with professionals inexplicitly or purposely misdiagnosing leaving me navigating life blindly.
The day of #suicide I heard Karl on speaker phone with Barb while I was unconscious. They were waiting for me to die so they could get on with their life together.
Even after hearing my husband cheating on me and his inaction or concern for me, I sent him a bible verse after I got out of the hospital praising him for his "love."
I listened to Barb laugh about killing myself wondering why I did it? SHE could not see red flags either.
The scripture is indicative of calling myself weak and selfish; destructive training that the church does to women and children that they are to be submissive, obedient, abused and be quiet about it.
The other red flag I missed was that Karl CHOSE THIS THERAPIST FOR ME! Deborah Metroka wrote in clinical notes that my husband would not save me if I attempted suicide again. You know what she did about that? Nothing. She identified domestic violence then assisted Karl behind my back to get me involuntarily committed 6 months later, completely ignoring the danger I was in.
I could not see they were working together the entire time. I did not see the flags that Metroka was intentionally causing secondary trauma and DARVO, which is all too common in domestic violence situations where mental health, medical, and family courts are involved.
Do not let my demise be in vain
Six days ago, Catherine ended her own life in a facility in Europe. Her final words to us all were ‘do not let my demise be in vain’.
A former criminal prosecutor and special counsel to the governor of New York, Catherine wrote, ‘After I am gone, he will falsely tell everyone that I am ‘mentally ill’, a criminal and a liar.’
Catherine is right, of course. Her ex will be able to control the story from now onwards. He will, like many other abusers, tell everyone that she had ‘mental health issues’, was ‘psycho’, was ‘unwell’ and that he was the victim. Classic DARVO of a perpetrator.
The reason she chose to end her life was not old age. It wasn’t a chronic illness. It was the family courts.
Please warn of how insidious these predators are, their flying monkeys, and institutional abuse that occurs. They are charming in public, so it must be the victims fault....look how "crazy" she is, she tried to kill herself. The church defended his abuse, and so did all the females in bible study who prEyed for me.
How was I supposed to see the red flags and danger? Abuse was normal throughout my life. I knew nothing else so Karl's actions were normal to me. Abuse was normal!
Society has normalized abuse, and made it a generational problem of "normalcy." Everyone pays however.
Economic Impact of Domestic Violence
The cost of intimate partner violence exceeds $8.3 billion per year in the United States.
Survivors of intimate partner violence lose a total of 8.0 million days of paid work each year.
Between 21-60% of survivors of intimate partner violence lose their jobs due to reasons stemming from the abuse.
Up to 50 percent of survivors of intimate partner violence who are employed are harassed at work by their abusive partners.
Between 2003 and 2008, 142 women were murdered in their workplace by their abuser; 78% of women killed in the workplace during this timeframe.
*Sources Center for Disease Control 2003, U.S. Gen. Accounting Office
Yep, that is him. He came off as a good and caring guy abused by Pastor James MacDonald the former pastor of Harvest Bible Chapel. David Jones stood by MacDonald’s side, even when his abuse became obvious.
You need to get away from these people somehow
I have been trying. They erased me. I have ZERO connections, money, or ability to get away now. The final money I would have had came from equity in my home that Karl [and Linda] let go into foreclosure. I know where Karl works and yet NOT ONE FUCKING PI CAN FIND HIM!
I went to cops, domestic violence, SIX churches, every friend I ever knew, my family – everyone for help – I am so targeted that I KNOW I am slated for ending. This comes after a flashback in February 2021 and subsequent suicide programming that I am fighting, though I wonder at this point, why.
By the time I figured out what was going on, it was too late, isolation job loss, church dropped me, targeted like you have no idea. I am a nobody but apparently they know what I remember more than I do and I need to be silenced.
God help you, stay strong. Hold on.